R.I.P. Daddy

He finished his course today…God’s decision was perfect and final…will be back to say more to myself later *smile*. For now, it is well! Ashe.Selah

1/22: OK. I never saw the memo. Or read the fax for that matter. Never had to. It should come as no surprise, tho, but it did. It’s a heck of a lotta work to plan a funeral! It really takes cloning yourself to get everything done…Whew! For the past few days, my second brain has been Mom. I gave her the title “sekki-tary” (secretary…for the challenged lol). She’s been step for step with me, pen and paper in tow, jotting…thinking of all the things I need to do, ask, say, don’t say, don’t do…so grateful.

Let’s see, how am I right now…….err…ummm…arra…Nope! No words yet. None sufficient to describe the depth and breadth of emotion….next!

I’ve been thinking alot about the chronology of things…the past 6 mos?….let’s see:
Aug. – Dad relos to L.A.
Sep. – Dad starts feeling ill…alot of falling
Oct. – He’s diagnosed with brain cancer
Nov. – We relo him back to ATL to care for him
Dec. – Speedy decline, on the front line of caregiving
Jan. – We lay him to rest

Wow…right now, it seems like everything happened so fast. Where’d the time go, ya know? But in actuality, if I look at the weeks and days and hours….it’s been such a long, hard road…for Dad first and foremost…but one graced with the favor of God nonetheless.

I remember thinking back in August, “Is this the last time I’ll see Daddy?” Guess the answer to that question was “No”. But I never saw him coming back with cancer, and I would have never picked this start for ’08. I know, who would right?

Hmm..then again, yeah, I did. The sweetness of rest compared to the way he suffered..the way we had to watch and couldn’t make it better, couldn’t make it stop… Come to think of it — Heck yeah!…this was the BEST start to ’08 that I never dreamed. What a gift…his rest…without agitation, fighting, never had a seizure…just simply took…his…last…breath, and went to sleep. A beautiful peace.

OK…all for now..next surge of energy, let’s talk family folks…lordy!

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