Honoring an Angel and Her Work

Our connection was instant.  Effortless.  A breath of fresh air after withstanding the staleness of her predecessor.  He was too rough talkin’, quick to jump to conclusions, and lacked the ability to hear me…relying on ears and education, more so than the heart (if he had one).

Her heart was golden.  Her voice like soothing waters.  Her strength was sure, but never overpowered me.  I think I’ll always be amazed at her balance of emotion and empathy.  She remained caring , yet professionally distant…steady and calm  through the rumble of my most turbulent episodes over those years.

Some called her a holistic therapist, counselor.  She would say, “I’m just a guide, love, you have to do the work.  Healing can happen!”

Right now, shock seems to overwhelm sadness….the passing of my guide, my angel friend Jamilah Nation last week to uterine cancer.

God gifted her life and her work to me, at a time when I thought mine was over.  If it didn’t work with her, who knows what I would have resorted to.  And for two years, she was there cheering, leading, and guiding me to new Me.  And in purposed time, a beautiful butterfly shattered the membrane of an awful, but needful cocoon…the butterfly she never doubted for a sec would one day emerge.

She birthed Ashe.Selah…..ended every session’s prayer with these beautiful words. I asked, “What does that mean?  Why do you say that at the end of the prayer?”  She replied, “Because we’re saying that everything we’ve prayed is already so right now.  Amen.”  Then she smiled.

She knew I would write a book about my life and healing journey.  Towards the end of sessions, I let her read a draft of chapter 1.  She loved it!  I told her her character’s name, and that I’d probably make her an old lady in the book  lol.  We laughed.   She carried an old, wise spirit, though only in her mid-forties.  I’ve always thought the “therapy scenes” would be the hardest to write, even after she gave me my full file with session notes.  Somehow, I’ll find a way to pull it all together…

Do I have questions?  Yep.  Are there things I still want to say to her?  Yep.  I hope through the inferiority of words, I expressed how much her friendship and service meant to me.  Thank you so much, Jamilah!!   Thank you sooo much, God, for sharing this beautiful angel with us, with me…I am so much better for it!

Pic:  She loved the islands, beach, water…